Will trade myself to get get spun out

I have been getting spun out for years. I was introduced to it by an ex. At the very first puff of smoke I became almost uncomfortably horny but my dick went immediately limp. However, the feeling was so great I kept doing it with her. Eventually we split up and as I tried to move on to other relationships I kept being unable to get hard even though I wasnt spun. After many tests and attempts with medication, I was informed that I had won the limp dick lottery and nothing worked. Initially I was quite depressed and void of any self confidence. I loved sex and I wasn't ready to give it up. So I decided that if my dick wouldn't work my mouth could and if I couldn't fuck then I might as well get fucked. This decision was made as I was at home getting spun and determined to get every ounce of joy I could in life despite the obstacles. Of course I was horny and watching porn and began watching men get fucked with strapons. I began playing in my ass and discovered that it not only felt good but I got a release of pleasure. Obviously, I began doing this regularly even using toys. But fucking my own ass is not what I wanted. I learned quickly that this kink was going to be hard to satisfy. Then it occurred to me that since getting spun elevated my hornyness so much that I would honestly trade my ass if I was spun. and that's how it all began. The last few years I have accepted what I am and that is a dope whore. My limp dick has shriveled up and is now only about 1 inch in length. But it doesn't matter because my mouth and ass are the only things being used. I am spun at this very moment I write this. I am laying on my stomach with a 13 inch toy up my ass as I where string thongs because my dick is so small that I have seen pussies bigger. Why? Because every shred of manhood has been stripped away and I am nothing but a bitch. No I'm a dope whore that spreads my ass and opens my mouth for anyone that wants to get me spun and do whatever they want to me. Please don't be confused, I couldn't change my circumstances so I changed my outcome. I love getting turned out, ran through, and wore out. I'm in Arkansas so if you want a dope whore hit me up. And if you want to bring friends to join in that's fine because get me spun and run a train on me