imma virgin who craves dick.

I’ve been a virgin my whole life. I’ve never even had a serious relationship. Most of them have never lasted over 2 months.

When I was young i came across a video of two people having sex and boom. Porn was in my life. I’ve been caught a couple times by my mom but after punishment i just go right back at it. I have a makeshift vibrator using an electric razor, but i really want to know what a real one feels like.

I bought the discreet makeup brush vibrator which works okay but i have trouble keeping it pushed on my clit because when it starts feeling good (which is immediately) i start shaking and stop applying pressure.

Anyways back to the main topic, I want to have sex. I want someone to fuck me. My hymen has been broken so it shouldn’t hurt much, but it might still hurt considering i’ve only had a hairbrush handle inside me. I tried a cucumber once and it was so big I felt really stuffed and stopped.

I really want someone to help me explore my possible piss kink. I love watching people getting pissed in and using their pussy like a toilet. I also like watching male piss jack off videos. I do already know im not interested in swallowing pee or getting peed on anywhere other than my vaginal area.

I don’t think i’ve ever really cummed if im being honest. I also get close and my pussy starts twitching and then i feel like i have to pee which i figure is squirting, and i try to let it out but it doesn’t come. Im not even sure what it feels like to cum. Im not even sure if i’ve let myself cum while fucking myself with the hairbrush handle.

I like hard ass spanking and i sometimes pinch and bite my nipples for pleasure. (i have DD tits but a small ass which is crazy bc i have huge thighs) i really want to own a dildo or. a vibrator but every time i order something my mom opens it so i can’t.

I would also love for someone to teach me how to suck dick. I’ve never done it and i know i would like to learn. but i have a gag reflex bad. It has been suppressed a little since i got my tonsils out but it’s still there. Regardless i would still want to learn how to suck a cock and learn what cum taste like. i want to know if i would be a swallower or not.

I go to college in August. i hope to meet a guy there. The problem is i live in arkansas and literally no one lives out here. and i can’t drive by myself yet. i, hopefully, get my license next friday but even then my mom won’t let me drive by myself.

Let me know what i should do guys!!