17m Why I stopped gay sex

I started having sex with this man in my neighborhood. He was great to me, treated me nicely, would give me money to spend, work when I needed it. I was 14 and very thin and kinda shaped like a girl. I had long brown hair and he liked that. It started with some nude swimming, eventually I gave him a blowjob after he sucked me off. He bought me a video game I wanted, it cost a lot but he said he really appreciated me doing what I did for him. He was 43, divorced in good shape, and he was 8 inches long, ramrod straight and not too thick. He came a lot, eventually I could take it all and swallow it all. He liked me to show it to him in my mouth, then swallow. He patted me on the head, gave me money or bought be things i wanted. He pretty much stopped sucking me, though he would maybe every couple of months. Mostly he wanted me to jack off while I was sucking his long cock. Then one day he didn't talk much, but we were naked, I thought I was just going to suck him off again, and I did. Then he took me to his bed. It was there that he fucked me in my butt for the first time. It hurt and took a few times to get used to it. He bought me more things after that first time, he saw how painful it was.

I got used to it like he said. So he and I were having sex, I was sucking and getting fucked, he was cumming in my mouth and in my ass. I was 16 when he moved, before he moved he introduced me to D a friend of his. Also a gay friend of his. D though had a very thick cock, 7 inches but over 2 inches thick. It was about the size of my wrist. He hurt me fucking me but I let him do it. He didn't cum as much as the first guy. It was easier to swallow it all, and he could fuck me twice before I had to go sit on the toilet and empty his sperm from my rear. He talked dirty to me while he fucked me. He also bought me things for letting him have sex with me. I was happy. Though I would notice a bit more brown streaks in my undies. After about 6 months it was hard to keep it inside me. I was so loose. I was also getting fucked sometimes 3 times a day from D. My mom noticed in the laundry and I made excuses. D also wasn't buying me as many things lately, I was 17 and I hadn't insisted on it, but he made no attempts to give me anything. I was used to the sex now, so I didn't mind.

One day over at his place, actually for a full weekend, knowing I would get fucked at least 7 or 8 times over those days. On Friday night, to start it off, he had me in the bed, fucking me missionary sucking on my nipples while fucking me. He knew I had very sensitive nipples. Then he did something he'd never done. He moved down and sucked my cock. I blasted into his mouth. He got up went to the toilet and I heard him spit it out. He came back and apologized. I told him it was OK that he spit. "No, not for that" he said. I asked what he was talking about "It's for this evening, and the weekend. I'm sorry I really need the money, just do it for me OK?" he said. I was still confused. There was a knock on the door. I'm still naked in the bedroom and he is naked and walked to open the front door. I stepped out hiding behind a wall to hide my being naked and just fucked. Eight other men walked in. Some as old as 65 the youngest was 18. He brought them into the back, and pushed me back into the bedroom and on the bed. "Everyone, this is Kimmie, you all paid, you can all play with him as much as you want this weekend." Turning to me he said "I need you to do this, I'll make it up to you I promise".

With that the youngest one was on top of me and before I could even say anything his bigger cock, bigger than D's was inside me pounding away. Another, much older man with gray pubes, stuck his cock into my mouth. He turned my head sideways, while I was being fucked and started holding my head and fucking my mouth down my throat. He shot off and was replaced by another. Soon the teen came inside me and was replaced by a man in his 50s wearing a wedding ring. By 2 hours they'd all cum in me, fucking me, me sucking them, them fucking my mouth. There was cum in my mouth, my ass, on my cock, my nipples, and leaking out of me. I just started crying when I went to the toilet to clean up. D came in and put me in the shower, apologizing to me more. Cleaned up, he tried to enema my ass and I couldn't even feel the nozzle. "Are they gone?" I asked him. Some were but were coming back, there would be more through the weekend. I asked why he did this to me, didn't he like me? Didn't he like the way we had sex? He loved it he said but needed money. They all paid a lot of money to him for me to be available to them anytime this weekend.

It went on and on, why I stayed? I knew that D and the guys wanted to fuck a young teen, wouldn't let me. I tried to sneak out the kitchen, holding my pants and shirt and three guys stopped me, tore up my clothes and dragged me to the living room. A pool of cum on the floor under me after a couple of hours and 7 more fucks. I stayed. Sunday night it was over around 8pm. I had nothing in me anymore. My hole was open, I was sick several times swallowing so much cum, some of the men gave me alcohol to drink which also made me sick. I couldn't walk home. My clothes were torn, D went and bought me more. I stayed the night with him, and to tell the truth it was another day before I could walk and not hurt. Then the panic. My butt prolapsed. My mom was terrified and took me to the doctor. The doc, a woman insisted that my mother leave and told me I shouldn't have anal sex ever again. Was I tested? Were the men I slept with tested. I tried to tell her it wasn't my idea but she wasn't buying it, especially after she realized it was a weekend long gangbang with 23 different men using me over and over.

My butt has never been the same, It's loose all the time, and it's sort of a puffy ring around the outside of it. I want to try dating a girl and having sex, but I'm afraid now she'll see my butt when we're naked and ask me about it. I have nothing to say. My moms whole comment was "it's alright to be gay, just be careful".