When I was 18 my boyfriend 26 and I raped a girl

I can't feel good about it, not at all. I was on drugs my boyfriend at the time kept me high almost all the time. He was 26 then, I was 18. Tom was my first sex when I was 15. I sucked one other boy twice and given him more handjobs than I could count. But I'd never been fucked. Tom took care of that in front and in back. He was a low level dealer, by 17 I was living at his place most of the time, my mom didn't care too much, she'd given up on me (she caught me sucking that boy off the last time I did it with him). Besides mom had my younger sister and brother to deal with. I was only 17 and three very big guys came to the apartment. Evidently Tom had taken some drugs from them to sell, only he didn't give them the money for them. I think it was because we did most of the drugs and he didn't sell much of it. They took him outside in back and I heard them arguing, then things calmed down. Tom came back in seemingly untouched. "I need you to go with them" he said. I didn't understand at all. I was the bargain they struck. I sucked, fucked and got buttfucked by the guys at the distributors mansion for 10 days. He kept me high, so I just let it go. I knew they would kill Tom if I didn't. I found out on the third day he brought over guys and they paid him in front of me. No one left, I couldn't take the guy or guys into my room like I'd been doing. I was laid on the couch and fucked by each of them for $200 to the distributor. After they left, I was crying and he told me he needed to get his money back. It went on for 8 days being sold, and used by the distributor and anyone of his "guys" that needed attention. It was the first time I was fucked by black men too.

At the end of 10 days I was extended for 4 more days so the distributor could get more money. Most of the time during those days he was selling my butt for sex. He said I'd been stretched out by too many large cocks and sometimes at night he'd stuff water bottles in my pussy and fuck me with them. It hurt so bad but he finally got a 1 liter Aquafina bottle inside me and fucked me with that. Those two huge bulges in the bottle stretched me terribly. He finally let me go back to Tom. But as a final, he made Tom come to get me, and once again on the couch sold my butt for sex while he made Tom watch. Then he made Tom kiss my butt hole and fuck me the same way. Then we were allowed to leave.

After that it was just get high all the time, do anything we could to get by. I sold my body, he even sold himself for sex with gay or bi men. We sold drugs, did drugs and stayed high. I was 18 when we were on a road trip. We went to Mexico to get some drugs and smuggle them back. On the way back there was a cute girl on the side of the road hitchhiking. We picked her up, she spoke english and she was talking very sexy, like the young girl she was trying to act like an adult. She was gorgeous, black hair down her back, small, petite, gorgeous skin, beautiful face, and great body. Out of nowhere Tom pulled down a dirt road, and behind some hills and trees we all got out. "Strip bitch" he said. I didn't know he meant her, and I started to undress. He yelled at me. He went to the girl, who by this time we realized was only 14, and I knew she was a virgin. He slapped her hard,knocking her down and told her to take her clothes off. She burst out crying and he told me to do it. I tried to calm her down and taking off her clothes asking him why. "Why the fuck do you think you dumb shit slut, I wanna fuck her. I know you wanna fuck her too, I see the way you were looking back at her all the time. " By then I had her clothes off, she was naked, covering her C cup tits with dark, nipples and her black haired pussy with her arms and hand. Tom opened the back door to the car and threw her in. On her back naked, she was crying hysterically now and he ordered me to "eat her cunt".

He was screaming and was out of it, he was in a fit of rage. I'd seen him like this before and I knew not to resist. I did as he wanted. I got down between her legs and started eating her virgin pussy. I spread her out and saw her hymen. He wanted me to make it with her he told me as he was taking down my shorts and my panties, then pulling up my tee. My tits free, my pussy and ass exposed I went on top of her, kissing her, feeling and sucking on her nipples, kissing my way down again to her pussy. Tom reached between my legs. "I knew it, you fucking love it, you're so fucking wet" and he shoved his cock into me and was fucking me. He was ready to cum and he pulled out. He yanked me away from her and got on top of her. "Tom, don't she's a virgin" I yelled and then I heard her scream out. He had plunged into her virgin pussy tearing her hymen. Before we were done, he made her lick my pussy to orgasm several times, I had to lick his cum out of her bleeding pussy. He fucked me while I was on top of her fingering her pussy and ass, then came up me and made me get on top of her mouth with my pussy and her eat his cum. He made me drive for a while back on the road again, and he was in the backseat with her, only wearing a tee shirt incase someone passed us. He leaned her over and got behind her. Again, tears from her, terrible screams as he plunged in and out of her virgin asshole. Pulled over I had to lick her asshole of his cum, though she was so tight not much came out. He took her clothes and we left her there crying, bleeding from him slapping her mouth, and from her formerly virgin pussy and asshole.

We got high as we were driving. I needed it, thinking what we'd done. The higher I got the less I thought about it, I'd fucked women before, for money. This wasn't any different I told myself. Tom got arrested in a armed robbery, and after two years was killed in prison by a pipe shoved up his ass through the night, it was torture. I straightened up, got off drugs, don't drink, don't do anything and met a great man at my first real job. We got married, he knows nothing of my past other than me making up a couple of boyfriends. I even told him I was 20 before I had sex with any of them. We have two daughters now, one is 13 and planning her birthday party I started to cry. They all think it was because she's "growing up so fast", but it's not. It's what I did raping that poor 14 year old mexican girl with Tom.