Slutty confession of a married woman

My confession of what I slutty things I did before I lost my virginity.

I'm a happily married woman in my fifties with three grown up children and this is my, I don't know whether confession is the right word. But I can't think of another word that suits. So let's stick with confession.

I was a gawky, nerdy girl. I was unsure of myself, I was jealous of girls who had confidence, looked beautiful, had big breasts etc. I wore glasses and at 15 I hadn’t had a boyfriend and was the stereotypical lost teenage girl. Oh would any boy fancy me!! Looking back now I cringe at my silliness. This isn’t to say I was innocent, one of my earliest memories was hearing my mum and dad have sex in the middle of the night. A slight banging on the wall, I put my ear to it and could hear murmurs and to my surprise a definite “Fuck my wet cunt” from my mum's mouth.
This unexpectedly made me wet and I have masturbated to this memory a few times. Very taboo I know and in no way did I wish I had had sex with my mum or dad. I suppose it's the thought that someone like my mum, so caring and loving, loves a good fuck.
Also to hear the word cunt was a thrill!!

There are three events, haha ‘events’ sounds too formal, saying ‘things’ makes them too trivial because they are probably the three kinkiest and sluttiest things I did and they were before I lost my virginity. I’ve never told anyone, not my husband, best friends now or past, haven't told ex boyfriends. I've come close a couple of times. Stories and fantasies shared but kept these ones all to myself.

I've kept everyone anonymous, and changed names. Before I tell you about the first time I was a slut I will mention a couple of things that describe me so you understand me better. I want you to understand my mind as well as describe what happened.
As I say I was a nerd and not one of the super popular girls but I had a few friends and my two closest friends were Sara and Lee.
I was the nerdy one, wore glasses, I still had a bit of baby fat around my face but Sara had advised a haircut that framed my face and made me look “like a hot minx” her words not mine.
Sara was beautiful to look at. Blonde and blue eyes. Lee had cute, brown hair with an elfin haircut.
I had the smallest breasts but they were starting to develop. Probably not because I checked them daily and worried about them getting bigger but it didn't stop me from checking my bust size in front of the mirror.

One day in school PE class we were doing athletics. Lee and I were in the same class and she said off-handedly that my legs looked great as we were running and she wished she had a set like that.
“Bet the boys love getting a look,” she laughed.
I puffed acknowledgement as we ran but I was happy as fuck, that night I checked them out. I was never a confident girl but from then I wore just slightly shorter skirts or tighter jeans and it was thrilling thinking I was getting checked out.
And you know what I was, every now and again I would see a glance from a guy and it was such a turn on being looked at.
I can't remember when I started to masturbate, I think around 13 but around 15 I had a fantasy where one of my teachers would see that I was wearing no panties as I flashed him in the front row ( I didn't sit in the front row of any of my classes).
He would keep me behind and we would make love. Although the fantasy would sometimes be less romantic. Fucked over the desk doggy being a fav and I remember a few times imagining having to eat a female teachers pussy while the guy teacher fucked me. That was a confusing fantasy because I was almost certainly not into girls as I found boys/men much more attractive. Looking back with many years of hindsight I can see that I had a tendency towards submissiveness and exhibitionism. I still had to discover my voyeuristic side but it was just as strong.

I stayed near the sea and it was a rare warm summer day in the UK. Sara, Lee, Kirsty who was the cousin of Lee and I all went to the beach. It was a short train journey and we had managed to dodge the fair. I was still 15 as was Lee and the other two were 16.
The beach was pretty busy, we chatted and talked and went swimming and it was a good laugh. We had managed to swipe a little alcohol from our parents. Bottle of wine and some cider. There was a family a bit over from us, a windbreaker and a tent for various children. There was a guy there in his late forties or early fifties who had been glancing over at us. To be honest a few guys had checked us out, when you're girls wearing bikinis then it's to be expected. The four of us had done our own checking out of the boys. Two teenage guys chatted with us but they left as we were making fun of them. I was too nervous to say anything and anyway it was obvious I would be last “pick”

After they left Kirsty said “ I would let the one in the red trunks put sun tan lotion on me”
“Aye topless” Sara laughed
“Too right” Kirsty said “ and bottomless”
We laughed and shared the rest of the cider and I kept my eye on the older guy, he looked over and caught my eye, we half smiled at each other and his eyes quickly flashed across my body.
Alright I thought, damn!! I couldn’t put my finger on it but it felt hot.
I lay relaxed in the sun and the girls asked me if I wanted to go back to swim in the sea but I pretended I was sleeping so Sara angled our parasol over me so I would be in the shade. I had my sun glasses on and watched the guy in secret pretending I was sleeping. Yeah he was definitely checking me out. There were two families plus extra bodies, friends etc as far as I could tell and I watched as he played with the four children. They had a ball and were kicking it about.

The ball rolled over to where I was and I heard the guy shush the children as the “lady was sleeping” I watched him come into view and bend down for the ball. He noticed my eyes were open when he crouched down.
“Hello,” he said softly.
A pause and I breathed “Hello”
He looked behind him and gave a comedy finger to lips motion.
I let amusement appear on my face and what I hoped was a sly smile. He picked up the ball and his eyes looked over my body. He caught my eye again and said “The stone benches 20mins” and his eyes looked to the top of the sand dunes where there were enclosed picnic benches. I knew they were in a bit of a state due to age and vandalism etc. There were a few sets of benches along a dune walk but the closest was a 5min walk.

I lay with the feeling of surprised shock but an overwhelming feeling of hornyness. In what seemed like no time at all but an eternity too, the guy walked off. I saw him kiss his wife and said he would be back soon.
“Let your Uncle Tim have a rest” I heard another woman say.
I looked at his wife and felt guilty but also very desirable. I wandered off in the direction of the toilets but as soon as I could I went veered behind the dunes. At one point I stopped and got my breath as I was starting to hyperventilate. I could see him at the benches looking over the chest high wall. He gave a small wave and I gave one back. I walked up the side of the hill and entered the bench area. Tim walked around the wall checking no one was coming. I didn't know what to do so stood motionless.

He had a dad body, thinning hair and I didn't find him attractive which made it all the more bad in a good way.
“Kneel there” he pointed to a patch of grass near the wall. I hesitated and started to say something like "what for" but he said very sternly “be quiet and kneel there Now!”
I did as he said.
“Good girl” he said, firm but soft.
He walked over and got his hard cock out and told me to open my mouth. This was the first cock I had ever seen apart from sex education, it looked huge then but now I know it was average but it was very very hard, he fucked my mouth very roughly for a couple of minutes then began to wank off in front of my face. Do you know what I would be a liar to say I didn’t like it. After a very very short time a lot of cum went in my mouth and quite a bit over my lips and cheeks. He never said a word after he came. He just pulled up his trunks and left. I walked back and wiped the cum from my face. I quickly took a dip in the sea and told the girls I had been to the toilet.

We left before the family and I looked over but he didn't even acknowledge me. This made me feel used and slutty and like a whore. Conflicted that night I masturbated and came the hardest I had ever up to that point in my life

A few months later Sara was staying at my house, I shared a room with my sister who was 14. She was staying at her friend's that weekend but we had all been ice skating. We said goodbye to my sister Laura and her friend Joanne.

On the way home Sara was telling me she had managed to copy her brother's VHS porn tape
He was away at a festival, so she managed to copy it. Her brother was a serial VHS tape copier, he would hire one from the video shop and copy it for him and his mates and so on (Yes that's how long ago it was, look up VHS of you have to)

“In your bag?” I shrieked, surprised.
I knew she had found it and she said she would make a copy for Lee and myself..just to be curious of course, obviously !!

Our conversation a few weeks back went like this..
“Do you want a copy if I can manage it?” We were walking home after school. Lee was staying back for band practice.
“Yeah” I replied straight away.
“Eager beaver” she nudged me.
“No pun intended,” she laughed.
“What's your favourite bit in it” I whispered.
“You don't have to whisper, no one can hear us” she looked about with an exaggerated turn around.
“Oh shut up” I teased.
I looked at her expectantly, she looked nervous and shy but blurred out confidently “ well there are a couple of threesomes. Two guys and a woman and stuff. My favourite is one with the chauffeur , maid and lady of the house”
“Oh really” I mused.
“There are five scenes, all good, wait and see”
“Have you seen any other porn” I asked
“No have you” she said
“I've never watched any porn”
“Well this is the only one I've seen and it's…. “ Her voice trailed away and we laughed.
“You dirty bitch” I said in a stage whisper.

She gave me the tape when we got back and I hid it in my room. We watched another film, a romcom and when we got into our PJ's we started to talk about boys. Who we fancied and who we had kissed. I had only kissed one guy but she told me she had been fingered. If only you knew I thought that some old guy had came over my face!!
“Are there any facials in the video?” I asked her.
“God yeah” she said “ that your thing?”
“Well you know, no, maybe, just curious” we giggled conspiratorially.
“put it on, have a look” she said
My mum and dad were asleep in their room so we had to keep the sound lowish. Sara was on the top bunk which was usually my sister's and I was on the bottom.
“Holy fuck” I gasped as the first scene got into motion. Two guys were fucking a blonde woman very roughly. She was moaning and writhing about in pleasure. They were taking turns using her mouth and pussy and ass.
“Jesus Christ” I gasped again as they spit roasted her. I could hear Sara kinda giggle and sigh as she watched.
“Oh my god indeed” she said “that is two hot studs, look at the fucking size of his dick”
One guy was black and had a huge dick that was spreading her pussy and ass out.
I was playing with myself and I suspected she was. It was weird and awkward but we couldn't see each other. I could hear her moan a little so I let mine out too.
“Ohhh yeah” she said quietly as the money shots were made. One came on the pornstars face while the other came over her pussy.
“Whew” I said “should we stop”
“Yeah” she said but we didn't, we watched the next scene which was the maid and chauffeur using the lady of the house. She had complained that she heard them fucking and soon enough they were both using her. Dildo and cock in her..the maid was skinny but cute as fuck with a black bobbed haircut and she was using a strap on the older lady. The guy fucked the older lady in the ass and made the maid suck his cock and then do it again but make the lady suck it.
“Would you do that” I asked Sara.
“Suck it or take it”
“Suck it”
“I'd do both” I said, “which would you prefer?”
“Anal” she said
“I'll suck then” I murmured “after being in your ass”
We said nothing for ages and watched as the older lady took the fist from the maid.
“This your fav bit” I breathed”
Sara squeaked a “yes, is that bad?”
I didn't answer because I was close to orgasm, I came as quiet as I could. I stood up and watched her on the top bunk. She moved the duvet back and let me watch her finger her pussy and rub her clit. I watched fascinated as she watched the video and me in equal measures.
“Wow” I said
“Wow” she agreed.
“Let's keep quiet about this” I enquired.
“Hell yeah” she said
I showed her my wet fingers and I turned off the video and hid it again. We listened to some music as we drifted off to sleep. I watched it many times but never with Sara or indeed anyone.

I did however realise I was inclined to voyeurism, I wished I had been able to watch Sara play with herself while she watched the porn video again.As I said before I like men, but there was an empowerment and sexiness about watching girls too. When I was over at their houses I managed to sniff used panties of Sara and Lee, I sniffed my mum's and snooped about my dad's stuff and found some dirty magazines. I was fascinated by the women brazenly showing off their bodies.
The smell of different pussy made me feel like a little dirty minx and I got off on it. At Lee's house the dirty washing basket was in the bathroom so one time I found what must have been a pair of her mum's and smelled them. I fingered myself off and used them to wipe my juices.
I got a boyfriend when I was sixteen, I stopped my silly stuff with the panties etc because I was afraid of getting caught and how that would be so very bad. The end of my life it would be. It really would!! And I now had a boyfriend but you know not all boys are the same.
He was cute and couldn't kiss to save himself but we laughed a lot. Not long after we got together I had a family holiday abroad. My boyfriend Mike said he would miss me dearly which was sweet and I was hinting that we would maybe make love when I got back. This pleased him no end but it thrilled me and made my pussy ache to know I had done sluttly things. I had filthy secrets that no one knew. Which brings me on to the last one.

The four of us (my parents, me and sister) went on holiday to Spain, it was a hotel where you sit down for dinner. Not sure if fully inclusive was even a thing back then.
I shared a room with my sister and my parents had the room next door.
I was at that age when I was too young to be left at home but didn't really want to be on holiday with the family but my sister was happy to have me there which was cool. I should say that she was a cool sister. Smarter than me and I'm pretty fucking smart and sweeter. She knew nothing of my kinks and still doesn't.
Present day I'm a department head in a big corporation.
We had a great laugh and snuck a few drinks here and there. My mum and dad were cool with me having a few and it was relatively easy to sneak a few more for me and her.
One night we stayed in the hotel as there was a barbeque and we were sitting at a big table of other people from the UK. There was a children's play area round the side of the hotel in a secluded area and it was a nice quiet place to chill out with my sister.and sneak a drink. I had taxed a good bit of vodka from my mum's 1L bottle she bought from duty free on the way over. I gave my sister a few swigs and I had a few and we were messing about on the swings to see who could go higher. We were laughing in that tipsy way.
We stopped and came to a gentle sway on the swings. There was a service entrance just a bit along and waiters had been going in and out. We had been waving to them as we were swinging up high.
“I need a pee” she said,
“I'm bloody bursting too”
“Excuse me” she called over to a waiter and he walked over smiling “can you tell us where the toilets are?”
“Sure miss” he said in accented Spanish “ he gave her directions to a ladies “but it's just one” he struggled for the correct word, he held up one finger “just one, single”
For some reason this made up piss ourselves laughing and he laughed along a bit confused. He was well hot. Kept himself in good shape.
“I'll go first” she yelled and ran off before I could “you'll just have to wait” she stuck her tongue out as she jogged away.

“Bloody hell I'm bursting, I'll need to go all the way to the foyer”
I was wearing a skirt, a vest top, nice cute panties and I suddenly felt horny and sexy.
“I'm gonna have to go in the bushes” I grinned “don't look”
I snuck into some bushes, pulled my panties off and went for a much needed pee. The waiter watched and I held my panties out to him.
“Hold them please” I begged, he walked over and openly watched me take a piss. He took my panties and sniffed them deeply. I was squatting down and he could see everything. I reached over and took down his zipper and took his cock out which was pretty big.
I started to jerk him off, he kept an eye out in case anyone came along, his cock was right in front of me. I took the panties off him and told him to wank in them.
“Hurry you fucking bastard” I whispered “ you’ve seen my cunt now cum in those cute panties”
I couldn't believe I was speaking those words. But I loved it.
“Bitch bitch” he kept saying over and over and then he came, first precum then thick spunk. I knew my sister or anyone could come along at any moment, I was hidden but it was still risky.
He watched me put my cum soaked panties back on, I could feel the sticky wetness on my pussy. It was hot, risky, sexy, slutty, whorish, filthy, depraved and so much more.

He went back in the service door as my sister came back. I told her I had nipped into the foyer and what the hell had taken her so long for me to get back before her. The rest of the night I spoke to everyone, family and people at our table with the spunk from the hot waiter in my panties.
I saw the waiter a few times again but nothing happened. Thank god we ignored each other.
So that's my confession of the things I did before I lost my virginity later that year. I love people thinking that butter wouldn't melt in my fucking mouth but given the opportunity I'm a little slut bitch cum whore.
xxx