When my cousin molested me

I lived with my aunt. And during my stay, my cousin molested me, I am most likely going to do a part 2

I had a huge crush on the boy next door;he was a few years older.But nothing too crazy. I was 14, my cousins were 16 (F)and 18(M) and with me being the youngest-I didn't leave the house very often. In fact, there were many restrictions placed on me because it was rumored that I had a boyfriend at 14 and he was 20 : foolishly, my mom told my aunt and my aunt told my cousins that I was promiscuous and fast! she told them about the nudes I sent and she told them about the older guys I was talking to online( you could imagine how he felt knowing that;and seeing me wearing spandex and white tank tops w/ nothing underneath and budding tits) To " protect" me, my girl cousin-let's call her glasses, put a a tracking device on my phone ,a password to download any app and she could see just about anything I had on my phone.

Back to my crush- his birthday was coming up and me, being In dance decided .. Hmm maybe I can make a sexy dance for him! I don't know how I had lingerie, but I did, I put on these heels I had wearing my red lingerie, I decided to dance to sin city (very popular song at the time) it had a part where it would go "Sin, sin city wasn't made for angels like you."And every time it said that I would bend over popping my hips and shaking my butt-Than try to do a split-.The thing was, I didn't really know how to do a split. So while I was wearing this lingerie and high heels I did an attempt at a split, and I pulled something. ( Dance class taught me to do warm up stretches beforehand but I didn't)I guess a hamstring and I was in immense pain. And the only person home was my cousin, I started screaming and crying, he came to my" rescue"I did put on some
booty shorts but it might have been obvious what I was doing when he came in because I forgot to put my phone away and the music was still playing; He firefighter carried me into the bathtub. No idea if I still had clothes on, or not. Or if the water was hot or cold, but I do remember bath salts were placed in the bottom by him. I think he just tried to comfort me. But he may have had other thoughts. I didn't make it easy within a few weeks later ..I had a mental episode well -I was naked and screaming on the floor crying.Guess who came in him, led by my other cousin and aunt, I was covered up by my aunt and she tried to comfort me.

A few weeks later I was alone & bored and after breaking myself, I decided I might as well invite my crush over and show him the dance I made him for his birthday.
We were both virgins so we just kissed and dry humped . He was my first kiss, and I assumed that he was going to be my boyfriend, turns out that wasn't the case. We heard the garage making noise. So he ran out the front door luckily it was my cousin, so I thought, luckily...

Let's give him a name- I will call my cousin hands,Because he had big hands and he loved putting them on me. I was crying and he gave me a hug. I told him without telling him what happened.And he told me we could watch a movie on the couch and to cheer me up he got some popcorn and keto snacks. The couch had a throw blanket on it and I put the blanket over my body, and I gave him some as well
He put his arm around me and his fingers kind of brushed against my breast, but I was like, maybe he didn't mean to so I didn't react.
And then hands started going lower and lower. He brushed against
My thigh

Let me paint a picture of what I was wearing: White tennis skirt that was kind of glossy, make up, pink crop top , i had a tattoo choker with flowers on it and my hair was in pigtails. Keep in mind I was trying to be sexy for my crush.

Close to my clitoris and that was kind of my spot. So once his fingers got very close-I really wanted him to continue, and I started reacting by lightly thrusting to get his hand to rub me, he stopped and made up some excuse to leave. So he left and I was so confused but wanting more
With a mix of my crush denying me and I felt like he was also denying me.I was now sexually frustrated.

Now trying to get his attention, I was acting out in school.And dressing promiscuous ( he was a senior at my school)
About two weeks later, he decided why not pick up on the movie?And I excitedly grabbed the blanket and sat on the couch, but to my surprise, he took the blanket off. But to even more surprise, he put his hands down my pants and started playing with my clit, I couldn't help but moan and enjoy it. But my aunt came back early, and he spoiled me by taking me to get a large fry and drink at Jack in the box !And some candy! (Having an almond parent that was a big deal )He keep playing with my clit and now touching my boobs the entire car ride...Now, I don't know if you remember. But glasses put parental controls on my phone, and I could no longer watch porn. So it was very exciting having someone touch me. And make me feel good. But
We had the entire summer together and with both glasses, and my aunt working..

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