The girl's story

Morning. I really don't want to get up, however, as always. May is approaching.
I barely opened my right eye and tried to focus on the clock, but it didn't work. But sometimes it turns out that today is probably not my day. Not my day?! No, today will be my day. That's what I decided last night, before I fell asleep. Today is going to be a great day, at least for me and for Leshik. But he doesn't know about it.
Last night, my thoughts were bothering me. It is at night that they begin their active activities, they spin in their heads like crazy, even though no one asks them to!
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I'm 18 years old. In principle, I don't want to be like everyone else and lose my virginity at that age, but it's not about age at all. The question is, do I want this? I know for sure that HE wants it, and that's a reason to do IT. We've only been dating for 1 month, and I'm already ready to do anything for him. I think I'm in love with him, but maybe it's just my imagination. It's been too long since I've had a boyfriend, and here he is, with such beautiful eyes, so caring, a little romantic. Love or dislike? I got confused in my feelings, I got confuI'm 18 years old. In principle, I don't want to be like everyone else and lose my virginity at that age, buit's not about age at all. The question is, do I want this? I know for sure that HE wants it, and that's a reason to do IT. We've only been dating for 1 month, and I'm already rey to do anything forhim. I think I'm in love with him, but maybe it's just my imagination. It's been too long since I've had a boyfriend, and here he is, with such beautiful eyes, so caring, a little romantic. Love or dislike? I got confused in my feelings, I got confused. I'm afraid that if I don't do it soon, he'll leave me. Now I'm afraid that if I don't do it soon, he'll leave me. Now it's so easy to find a non-virgin, so why would he have any extra problems with me, teaching me something, when you can find another girl who is experienced in such matters and not "bother". I don't want to lose him, so I'll do IT tomorrow. That's it, we need to sleep!
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I barely looked at the clock – 10 a.m. It's high time to get up, in 7 hours you have to go to the institute, and before that, stop by Lyosha, and not just stop by!
After taking a shower, I sat in the kitchen with a mug of fragrant coffee and slowly pressed the buttons on the radio phoold coffee.