Tammy discovers her sexuality

Tammy was technically a virgin when she went to college. She had spent the summer after graduating high school traveling with her parents, mostly to visit schools that wanted her to attend their particular alma mater. She was a straight A student in high school, and several colleges offered her full ride scolarships.
Tammy is asian american, her really name is Tamiko. The name Tammy came about from her school beginning. The other children could never get her name right and Tammy kind of stuck. Her parents where restrictive on her dating boys in high school. She was allowed to go with a boy to prom, but he was the son of their close friends. They felt he was safe as he was like her, an academic who didn't have time for anything but studying.
His name is Ren, and he was nice and polite to her, they became friends, actually Tammy considered him her best friend. There was no physical attraction though, even though their parents thought it was a good match. Ren is gay, He told Tammy that in confidence.
It did not bother her in the least. With their traditional parents, they would wind up being in an arranged marriage. She knew that would not happen of course. The one thing she didn't understand about Ren was why he chose to be with other men sexually. He explained to her, "It is not a choice. It is how I feel."
Tammy was confused being a novice in the subject of sex. She asked, "How do you know it by a feeling?"
"You just do." He says.
She said, "I guess I don't understand still, I haven't given much thought to sex."
"Best advice I can give you, is to research it. Today we have the ability to view certain things to determine if we would like it. It is better than doing something or assuming that you should do that thing that way."
I could tell he was dancing around the point he was trying to make. I figured I would let him off the hook so to speak. I said, "Do you mean view pornographic material?"
"Yes, maybe after you look into the subject more."
"I will take your advise, I can hide it from my parents, they are not as tech savvy as you and I."
"That is so true." He laughed. "But don't tell them that."
We laughed a little and talked about a couple of things. We parted ways and I went home. My parents were excited to see me as a corespondent from the college of my choice had arrived. I opened it at their insistence, and it was an acceptance letter. I had been granted a full scholarship for academics.
My parents took me out to celebrate. While at the restaurant, I payed attention to those around us. The things that Ren had said still going through my head. I had never really looked into sex before, but now I was taking mental notes of those around me.
I was thinking about how I would feel around them, not in a setting like this, but something more intimate. I started to imagine then without clothes on. That started something for me, I started to feel what I guessed to be arousal.
It was new for me. I was feeling what best I could describe as a very warm sensation in my private area. It was funny though, I was feeling it while looking at both men, but more so woman. What did this mean? I never thought about another woman as attractive to this point. I decided I had to explore things, like Ren had suggested.
After dinner we went home, and I waited till I was sure that my parents had gone to bed. I had changed into my pajamas, and once I was certain they slept, I secured my door and turned on my lap top. I was not sure were to start and figured to just type in having sex.
First things to appear are pornographic in nature. I scrolled down and actually found more scientific results. I opened a couple and read them. They were basically sex education articles on male and female, and fairly informative. The scientific aspect now satisfied, I typed in lesbian sex. Again several adult sites appeared, but again I could scroll down and find information about the subject.
I read them and coupled with the prior ones, I was getting moist and warm between my legs. I read them some more and decided I wanted to view the actual subject. I had heavy protection on my lap top, so I wasn't concerned about viruses.
The first pictures than opened where extremely, well explicit. They showed a closeup of a woman's vagina and another woman's mouth against it. I went through a series of them, and as I viewed them my own lust starting to develop. My own vagina was extremely moist. I had never felt this way before. I knew the term masturbation, but did not know how to proceed with doing it. Again I entered female masturbation and was rewarded with a few videos.
As I watched them, my hand moved down to the hem of my pajamas. I slipped my fingers under them and felt my panties. I moved my legs apart and felt myself through the cloth. I felt moisture on them. I knew it was from me, I was aroused. I moved my hand to the hem of my panties and slipped my fingers under them.
My fingers slide over my very soft pubic hair. I reach the top part of my vagina. I have never touched myself in a sexual manner like this before. As I touched my clitoris, it felt like lightning ran through me. I had to stifle a moan as I started to circle it. I used the same motions like I had seen on the recordings. It felt incredible, and I continued to maturbate myself.
I felt restricted by my clothing and as quietly as I could I got up and removed my pajama bottoms and top. I removed my bra and panties and laid back on the bed. I could see myself in the mirror on the wall next to my dresser. I liked the way my body looked. I ran my fingers over my erect nipples. My breast are small compared to the woman I'd seen in the recordings, I wear an A-cup bra. I slightly pinch my nipples which sent a shiver through my body.
I watched myself in the mirror as I moved my hand back down to my vagina. I spread my legs apart further and felt around the soft folds along my labia. I was very moist now and my curiosity got to me and I lifted my finger to my mouth and tasted my own fluids. I liked it, it made me even more aroused than I was before. I placed my hand back down to my vagina and started to masturbate.
Again, I held my moans in as I did. It felt wonderful, the more I rubbed my clitoris, the more pleasure I felt. Something was building inside of me, it felt so very good. I knew I was going to make myself have an orgasm.
I kept at it and took the end of my pillow and placed it in my mouth to stifle what I knew was going to be a possibly loud explosion. My vagina actually started to quiver, and I felt my clitoris swell, then my labia as well.
I started to orgasm for the first time. I moaned loudly into my pillow. My vagina quivered and throbbed as I did. It was all I could do to keep my hand working on my clitoris.
As the intensity came down, my clitoris grew a little sensitive, and I had to let up on the rubbing part. I moved my finger down to my vagina's opening. I want to know what it would feel like inside, and I slipped my finger into the opening. I was extremely moist and it went in easily. I came to an obstruction which I knew was my hymen. I had a decision to make.
If I push past it, I am no longer a virgin, Also I may bleed. I decide to do it. I felt a momentary bit of pain then nothing but a sence of desire. I explored my vagina, seeing how far I could insert my finger. I added another, and although it felt tighter, I was able to get it in easily. It felt good and I started to move them back and forth, mimicking having sex. That felt even better and I placed my other hand onto my clitoris and started to masturbate again.
I looked at myself in the mirror, What I was doing aroused me, I liked what I was seeing. This time my orgasm came on faster, and I just had time to turn my head and bury it in the pillow. As I climaxed I felt my vagina clench around my fingers.
I had never thought I would do this, now I wondered why I haven't been doing it from a long time ago. I removed my fingers from my vagina. They where coated with my fluids. I placed them in my mouth and sucked the fluid off. This time it was more powerful in flavor. I decided I liked the taste. I wondered if all woman tasted the same.
I got up and went to my attached bathroom and cleaned up. I stood there naked looking at myself in the mirror. I wondered
if a woman would find me desirable. I can't believe that I am actually considering this. I don't consider myself a lesbian, I am still attracted to men, well maybe bit less, as much, than I thought I was before.
I turned back to my bed got dressed, and I got back into my bed, and worked on falling asleep. It took a fair amount of time to however.
I awoke in the morning and got in the shower, I masturbated while I was in there. I thought of another woman when I did. I was going to college in about six weeks, and I hoped I could explore my newly discovered desire. I couldn't wait to talk to Ren, he would be the only one to understand what I am now feeling.
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