My girlfriend turned me into a rapist

This wasn’t something I wanted to become, it was pushed on to me but now I have a problem.

It has been 2 years since I’ve had sex and I’ve had a girlfriend for the latter 1.5 of those years. I’m 24 and my girlfriend is 19 and we have yet to have sex yet, even after being together so long. Normally this isn’t something I’d be okay with but I’m with the love of my life, she’s the most beautiful, amazing, kind and loyal girl I’ve ever known. My girlfriends name is Shae, she’s about 5 foot 1, a little under 100 pounds, black hair with the ends dyed royal blue, gorgeous pale perfect skin, she has a sexy little bubble butt with some sleek legs, a super flat stomach, small titties but enough to fill your hand enough to give you that “ahh got some titty in my hand” feeling. Shae also has these super cute little freckles below her eyes and around her nose.

The reason we haven’t had sex yet is because Shae was raped when she was younger thus giving her trauma and she told me she can’t see herself having sex anytime soon. This was all told to me in our first couple weeks dating where she basically said sex was off the table. She told me she hasn’t had sex once since that night. I knew her for some time before hand and I cared so much about her I told her I didn’t wanna be with her for sex and I wanted to be with her cuz I cared about her so much. Fast forward to now and all we’ve done is make out and cuddle, I haven’t even seen her naked yet nor in her underwear, I’ve just seen her in a tank top and some shorts. She does let me touch and stroke her legs tho, fuck she has the sexiest little white legs, they’re so smooth, soft and warm, every time we cuddle and she has on some shorts my hands are always on her legs, it’s the one thing sexual related I get to do. Needless to say I always have the hardest boner when I’m touching her legs, I will often get blue balls if I don’t excuse myself for a few and go jerk off after a cuddle session. Even if I’m not caressing her silky legs I’ll have to go crank one out from having her insane squishy ass pressed up against my cock, you see when we cuddle it’s most comfortable for her to be in front of me where her ass crack completely envelopes my cock where I can feel her ass checks swallowing my dick.

Shae was living with her grandparents for most of our relationship while I had an apartment and she just recently moved in with me. Kind of strange living with my girlfriend whom I have yet to fuck yet. She’s all settled in now tho and we’re laying on the couch watching tv and cuddling. I have on a basic white t shirt and boxers and Shae is wearing one of my muscle shirts and some very very thin booty shorts, she knows I love it when she wears those and wears them for me cuz it gives me access to her smooth creamy legs. I’m big spoon and she’s little spoon as always, and cuz she’s so much shorter than me her head lays just below mine and of course she has her ass smushed up against my cock and it’s fucking hard. I can feel my cock part her ass cheeks like Moses parted the Red Sea and I’m deep in there, no skin contact or anything but it still feels really nice. I reach down to touch and graze her legs with my right hand and it just makes me even hornier. All I’m thinking about right now is how amazing it would be to fuck Shae, I mean she has the most perfect body I ever saw and the fact she really only had sex with one guy, raped or not, makes her so appealing to me it’s not even funny. Knowing she has such a low body count where there’s no line of guys out there who fucked her before me is such a turn on, I bet her pussy is so tight it’d turn a pencil into a diamond.

As I’m feeling up her legs with this crazy boner, I’m smelling her hair which is right in front of my face it’s just driving me wild. Now cuz I love Shae so much I never once pressured her into having sex or made any sort of move on her that suggested I was trying to initiate it but for some reason this night I was just feeling different, maybe it’s the fact I haven’t had sex in so long or had any meaningful sexual release from someone other than myself but I just started thrusting my hips up and down. Each thrust I could feel my cock slide between her sexy little ass cheeks and FUCK did it feel good, I think I may have forgot what sex actually feels like cuz this was feeling like it to me. I started very slowly as to not alert Shae, I was trying to make it seem like I was just shifting my weight or adjusting my position but I was most definitely fucking her ass, so to speak.

I’m laying on my left side with my left arm and hand under the pillow my heads rested on and my right hand is on her right thigh feeling it up while my cock is buried deep is her ass crack slowly moving up and down between it. Whether Shae knows what I’m doing yet isn’t clear but it soon will be. I take my arm out of the pillow and wrap it around her chest squeezing her tits and then sink my right hand in between her legs and started thrusting faster, I’m awoken now and there’s no turning back. Shae became aware quite quickly that I was using her ass as a fuck toy becoming frightened and begged me to stop in a panic. “JAMES JAMES JAMES!!” Is what she said as I continued to slide my cock between her ass, it felt so good I couldn’t help but ignore her. Not having sex for this long has taken it toll on me and I’m taking my dues. Sitting here alone with this petite pale princess half naked before me was just too tempting not to. Fortunately for Shae cuz I had only jerked off the past 2 years my stamina was terrible. Each thrust I gave her I could feel her ass spread and squish against my cock and body, it was the sexiest cushion I ever felt. Back and forth and up and down I went, I could feel her legs trembling with my right hand and on my left hand I could feel her heart racing. Fuck this feels amazing.

Shae continues to tell me to stop, I get a few more thrusts off and I can feel my body quivering, balls are tingling and hair is standing. Oh fuck oh fuck I’m about to cum, I grip her legs even tighter where I can feel her heart beat through her femoral artery, I give one last thrust between her ass and start to cum right onto my stomach, my cock was tucked under my boxers waistband and had my shirt over my cock so all the cum spewed put on me, there was a lot of cum, a lot. After I came I had a couple involuntary body jerks, I loosened my grip on Shaes body and fell back into the couch. Shae stopped moving and speaking as well and just laid there in front of me silent and still as midnight. A few minutes after I came I started to think if I just raped Shae, I mean I had my boxers on, she had her underwear and booty shorts on and there was no actual penetration so it can’t possibly be rape right? Although I did use her body to get an orgasm without her permission so I’m not too sure.

Shae hasn’t budged a muscle yet and I’m afraid to move before she does, she’s just laying there probly absorbing the whole ordeal that took place. 10 minutes later she got up and went to bed, she didn’t say anything or look at me at all. I decided to just sleep on the couch. As I was trying to fall asleep it hit me that Shae was already raped once as a girl and this whole thing was probly much worse for her than it would have been for a girl who wasn’t legitimately raped before. And for her very next sexual encounter she was used for an orgasm again without her consent, she specifically said sex was off the table but then again that wasn’t sex. Fuck she’s probly gonna break up with me. No no I can’t lose her, she’s the greatest thing to ever happen to me and I had a crazy moment of weakness. I actually started to feel sick to my stomach, not just the thought of losing her but for making her feel so scared and probly brought up some very painful memories, truth be told I still don’t know the exact details of her rape, I don’t know who did it, when it happened and how it happened, but I’m sure she just relived that night as I fucked her ass cheeks.

That whole night I didn’t sleep one minute, I kept on replaying the whole thing of what I did in my mind, although it felt so fucking good it would not be close to being worth it to lose her. I know Shae gets up around 8am so I got up earlier to make a huge breakfast, I was making everything she loves, pancakes, scrambled eggs, bacon, toast with butter and jelly, even ran out to the store for some pomegranate juice. Everything was almost done being cooked so I made a coffee and brought it up to our room and put it on the nightstand next to her hoping the smell would wake her up. 10 minutes later I heard the stairs creaking as she was coming down. I was so scared and nervous. She turned the corner looking so cute, she was still wearing my muscle shirt and those sexy little booty shorts and her hair was all messy from the bed. She looked at the whole smorgasbord of food I made and sat down at the table. I made her a plate of all the things I made and put it down in front of her, made a plate for myself and sat down next to her.

She picked up her fork and played with her food for a minute, took a single bite and then finally looked at me with her beautiful big green eyes, what she said next shocked me. She says “So you wanna fuck me that bad huh? Is that what you want? To fuck me? You want to fuck me without my permission??” All I could say was “Shae… I..” she then interrupted me and said “I want you to rape me… I want you to fuck me like you never fucked a girl before and no girl would give you any pussy.. and if you don’t I’m leaving you”.

UM WHAT!?!

To be continued.