I think I like it too rough, can you help me?

I was 18 when my Dad came into my bedroom as I was getting ready for bed and sucked my cock.

I really feel the need to tell my story, it’s even taken me by surprise, but I need to unburden myself.

I was 18 when my Dad came into my bedroom as I was getting ready for bed and sucked my cock. He didn’t say a word, just sat on the end of my bed, pulled me towards him placed his lips around my
cock, his large hands grabbing on to my buttoks pulling me towards him, his fingers toying with my arsehole without penertrating me. I didn’t argue, I didn't complain, just enjoyed the sensation as I filled his hot mouth. He didn’t relent, and as you can imagine, a boy having his first sexual contact, it didn’t take long before I spurted into him. He never mentioned it again, and we never spoke about it.
i didn’t really understand what happened. In those days i wanked a lot, watched a lot of porn, and mostly enjoyed young men, fucking older women, the harder the better. So I was pretty sure I wasn’t gay. About six months later, and still looking forward to my first sexual encounter with a women, I was about to take a piss in a public urinal when i was joined by an older man. as he stood next to me i couldnt help but notice his thick cock but rather pissing he just stood next to me masturbating his giant erection. Completely mesmerized by the scene i stood and watched as he rubbed himself until he spurted a massive shower of cum into the urinal.
i still had my soft cock in my hand waiting to piss, and momentarily forgotton what i was there to do. He then gestured for me to go into one of the stalls. I followed him in. He sat down on the toilet, and pulled me in. i shook my head trying to indicate him i still needed to piss. I couldn’t believe what he did next; he just opened his mouth. i couldnt help myself, this dirty old faggot, my cock became semi hard, as i emptied my bladder into his mouth. He then licked the tip of my cock and began to suck it until it became fully erect. Like my dad a few years earlier he pulled me towatds him slippimng his fingers into my arse crack seeking out my hole. Unlike my dad, he slipped his finger inside me. pushing it in as he forced his cock towards the back of his throat. My sexual inexperience once again betraying me, and it didn’t take long before I filled his mouth with my cum.

For the next four weeks, I often visited the same public toilet in the park, but never saw the man again. Each night I would go home, wank while watching young men violently fuck older women. It wasn’t long after that that I met my first girlfriend. She was sweet and innocent, and we took our time to get to know each other. Together we learnt to enjoy each others bodies, and after some encouragment she began to suck my cock, although she didnt really take more than a couple of inches into her mouth. I was desperate to force my cock down her throat, push it so far inside her that she would choke, hold her head down on it until it would make her puke. It was a similar feeling as I gently made love to her. As i moved in and out enjoying the warm feeling of her wet pussy engulfing me. i was desperate to grab her by the throat until she was gasping for air or smash her head against the wall as I pounded her sticky cunt completely ignoring her plees for me to be gentle.

After about 18 months, we split up. She left me. She couldn’t explain why but she felt something was missing, I begged her to stay but made no difference and when i went home I wanked myself to sleep while imagining raping her arse. I came into my bed sheets as i imanged withdrawing my blood soaked cock.

Now, towards the end of my final year of University, I went to a party last week and on the way home, crossing the campus, I realised I was being followed. A couple of glances back, I realised it was a young man. I let him catch up with me, and we darted behind a bush. I pushed him down on the ground and pulled out my cock. It was already rock hard. i didn’t let him suck my cock. Instead I fucked his cunt mouth. i held his head so he couldn’t move and i fucked him with long fierce strokes. for a momen he seemed to resist but quickly acquiesced, i fucked his mouth until his eyes almost popped out. i fucked his mouth until bubbles came out of nose, I fucked his mouth until saliva ran out covering my engorged cock. i kept going, no mercy, no let up, until i was ready to come. Unlike all those years ago when my Dad took my cock in his mouth this time i withdrew my cock, directed it towards his bloodshot eyes and made sure he was looking as i sprayed my load over his face.

After a brief moment where we both needed to take a minute to regain our compusure. he stepped towards me while pulling his own cock out of his jeans. I wasn’t quite sure what he was expecting me to do. But I was taken by surprise when he moved in to kiss me. Managing to dodge his approach i asked him what he thought he was fucking doing and why he though t i would want to kiss his faggot mouth. He mumbled something about being gay, and anyway, it was his turn. I looked down he was still grabbing onto his cock, it was discusting. I’m no fucking queer i bellowed. I held his shoulders and thumped my knee, hard, into his groin. He doubled over. As he did my other knee caught him flush on the forehead he toppled over. He lay beneath me, He tried to rise, I forced him back down. He tried again to rise, his shrivelled cock still exposed. i couldn’t resist i kicked him hard right into the meat of his testicles, he squealled like a little pig, I kicked him over onto his back and there it was his pathetic little cock. I lifted my foot and stamped down hard on it over and over again. His body shook and convulsed, I didn’t stop until he was silent. What a stupid little faggot he was. My cock was rock hard again, and as he lied there in puddle of his own piss, shit and vomit. It was a fucking awesome sight, I took my cock and pissed all over the stupid cunt.