My unfulfilled dream

Ive always told myself Im straight, but lately some of my bisexual urges have become even bigger desires than my straight ones, here is one of my fantasies

Im a guy, 24 years old, living in the Netherlands. I always knew I had interrest in guys, cum and dicks specifically, but always told myself I just like those because I can relate to them. Still Ive had some gay expiriences before and lately Ive even had a big dream, though making it come true seems quite difficult so it might remain a dream forever.

As for my expiriences, Ill share those here too to fluff up the length of this story a bit. Basically, anytime a girl would blow me she'd whine and complain because I make a huge amount of precum and theyd always say it tastes really bad. Well, Ive tasted myself and theyre absolutely exaggerating. They also said sucking dick was way harder than I gave them credit for, and they shouldn't have to swallow nasty cum just to make me happy when the blowjob is high effort already.

Now its worth mentioning Im fairly well endowed, just under 17cm long and 3 fingers diameter, so the part about it maybe being hard to fit in their mouth I cant really disagree on, but I sought out a bicurious friend who turned out to have a similar size than me, only slightly smaller, and we made a deal that Id suck his cock to proof to myself the girls were exaggerating and its not hard at all. The first time we tried we did so in the woods near my house, but mosquitos and people hiking nearby prevented my friend from giving me that salty goodness I aimed to claim, however I could at least confirm sucking dick isnt hard to do, though it can get a bit tiring on your jaw, which is fine if you just take breaks to lick the shaft.

The other time we tried this was at his house during a sleepover (we went to a festival together next day so we told his mom I was just staying over so we could leave earlier), but he couldnt cum yet again because he was too worried about his mom hearing us so once again I was left without tasting what I came there to taste. Shame.

Now its time I tell you about my dream. Its weird, and probably considered very gross, but I dont care.

Its a bit of a broad concept and hard to summarize, but i want to expirience other people's horniness, especially men or trans girls, anyone with a cock basically. One big example that Ive been trying without luck to arrange is for someone to leave one or even a bunch of condoms they filled out in public in a place they tell me about. The deal is no contact, they dont see me and I dont see them, but I go to where they left the condoms and I take them home. Not sure what Ill do with them yet, maybe put them on and stroke with their cum on my cock, maybe drink the cum if its fresh enough, god if its still warm it might be hard not to drink it haha. My only concern is stuff like STDs, since I dont want any of those obviously. Because of that, itd be even better and sexier if it was the cum of a virgin. Just imagining getting to play with the filled condoms of a virgin femboy or trans girl makes me harder than diamond!

Sadly, while a few people have taken interrest the drop-off has never been made reality, as either me or the gifter wuss out before it happens so far, and my reddit accounts keep getting banned and that was the only place I had any success with this so far.

Other parts of this fantasy would be men or trans girls sending me unsolicited dickpics, cum vids or pics, piss vids, stuff like that. I want to be harassed the way some girls get harassed on social media by pervy men and trans girls.

If you want to help me with this fantasy, my telegram is CinnamonDragon. Anything goes, I have some limits, but I wont share them because I want people to be depraved and perverted and treat me like I dont have any rights in that sense.

If anyone is interrested in the condom thing or other dropoffs like it that fit the fantasy and you live in NL or are visiting you can inquire me about that too, especially if youre a virgin and or trans girl. Cum socks, worn underwear, plenty of stuff that could be fun haha. As for where in the Netherlands the dropoff should be, Ill only discuss that in private, but its in the northern part of NL so if you cant get there then theres no point. I dont want it delivered to my home so itll be in a location away from where I live, but I also dont have the money to travel across the country to retrieve it lol