I feel like a slut or whore. I let my BF have anal, and I LOVE it, can't get enough of it.

I am 22 yrs old, female. I am fairly tall at 5ft. 9in, weigh in at 110lbs, with C cup breasts. My areolae and nipples sort of puff out from my breasts at bit, nothing weird looking guys seem to like it. I say guys, but I have only let 3 guys see them, and only had sex with two of them. I did have oral sex with the other but only that and it was only 3 times. I was 20 and hadn't had sex yet, he was getting rougher and rougher with my oral pushing my head down on it into my throat. I was afraid quite frankly with his insistence and demands for vaginal sex that he would rape me or something. I did date a guy at 21 and we have sex. It was nice, it was probably 10 times before he stopped mid sex, and went down on my. He gave me my first orgasm, eventually I could do it during sex with him. Then there was Tom, my current BF. I gave him hand and oral, then sex. We've been together for almost a year now, and I do love him and told him so. He wanted to have anal sex so badly. I wouldn't do it, I mean his finger inside my butt hurt me.

I kept asking him what kind of woman would let a man do that "back there"? I mean I knew three girls who let guys do that to them and quite frankly the least slutty one of them has had 18 different guys have sex with her. I didn't want to be like them. He even talked about us getting married, we both have really good jobs, and I asked if he didn't want to do "that" on our honeymoon, even on our wedding night. It would be my gift to him. He stopped talking about marriage I felt like I was losing him. So I did my online research, asked a few of the sluts about doing it. I had lube, I had been using my finger, 1 at first, then three in my butt to make it not hurt so much. Tom and I were at my place as we usually have sex there, and he was in bed waiting for me to come out of the bathroom. I was lubed up and ready back there, and immediately went to him, took down the cover and lubed his cock. He loves it when I say cock for him, and talk about my pussy. I told him after I had him lubed, that he had to go slow, not to hurt me, if he hurt me I made him promise to stop. He said as long as it didn't hurt too badly would I commit to doing it at least 3 times in a row to "get used to it". I sighed and agreed, then laid down on my belly.

He mounted me, and pushed in slowly, I had even stuck 4 fingers up inside me several times and though his thick cock was stretching me it was only slightly painful, nothing too bad. Once inside me he held it there, moved his face to mine and kissed me. He told me how good it felt inside me, how it was so different from my pussy which he loved, but this was different, and very very tight. He was hesitant to move, saying he didn't want to hurt me, but I started moving back and forth as I could. He picked up the motion and reached a hand under my hips to my blonde haired pussy and was rubbing on my clitoris. He started moving in and out fulling now, his 8 inches was pumping out till only the head was inside my butt, then pushing all the way in. I was pumping back at him too. The thought of doing something so dirty, so whorish with his fingers working my clitoris I started whining, almost screaming, then yelled it "I'm cumming, I'm cumming" he and I came together. I swear it felt like his 8 inches when he pushed into my butt to cum went 2 more inches into me. We were both catching out breath, him still inside my newly christened butt. "Oh shit babe that was incredible, did you really cum?" he asked. "Yeah, on yeah," I looked up at him "What does that make me?" and he was puzzled. "I don't want you to think I'm a slut, I'm not Ted" I told him I was actually starting to cry. He comforted me, and eventually he fell out of me. Turning me on my side face to face, he was asking me why I was crying, asking if I didn't enjoy it. Yes I did, but I felt like a whore or something. "No , No babe, you are not a slut, not a whore just because you like anal sex. Lots of women love it, plus it's something more to do during your period, and you can't get pregnant" he said. I asked him if he didn't think less of me because first, I let him do it, second I liked it, and third I was yelling like some whore while cumming from it. I'm normally very quiet when I cum from vaginal sex.

He fucked me again that night, and again the next morning in my butt. I loved it, the morning I came twice while he was ramming in and out of me. I know after months, ask for it many times. For some reason my orgasms are stronger when he's inside my butt. When he puts is finger on my clitoris while he's making love to me anally, it's even better, but I can have an orgasm without that, just by him making love to my butt.

I really really like it, but I still harbor feelings that he's going to get his fill of me, now that he's had me in all three ways and will leave me like a man leaves a whore to go get a wife. I love anal sex, but I feel like I'm such a slut for liking it this much.