Why I am who I am 9

Going back to Kentucky. Thinking I was better. But I wasn’t.

I hope this answers some of the questions I had in the comments of chapter 8.

After I begged Mom Jen. ( yeah we had the same name. That’s why I just called her Steve’s mom or just mom) to let me stay with them. I quickly found a job driving the school bus. Same route as my old one in high school. But I guess before I get into that. I should fill you in on what Steve was up to. While I was popping pills and having sex all over the south. Steve went back to college. And got a degree in finance. A nice job in a bank the next town over. He also started going to the gym. Went I first saw him. I remembered why I went on that date with him. He was looking good. Even in his wheelchair. He was in a much better place in his head too. No more depression. He was stronger. In a lot of ways. He was better than I was.
That first night he put me in my place.
“ so, you want to head to bed now. Now that your mom is sleeping?”
“ I might later. And I’ll be going to bed by myself Jen. You’re welcome to stay. Mom told you you could. But we’re not playing any games.
What if I just push your wheelchair in your room?
That’s when Steve grabbed my arm and pulled me down over him. He man handled me till I was bent over his knee and he started spanking me. Not in a sexy way. He really blistered my ass. Then dump me on the floor. If was everything I could do to keep from crying. I didn’t want to wake up his mom. He smiled and rolled off to his room.
I got pissed after he left and waited for an hour. After he was good and asleep I snuck in his room and was on him before he could stop me. He taught with me for a while but he didn’t want to wake up his mom either. I won. I had him pinned down. And my skirt was already up over my ass. I reached down and found him hard. I knew he would be.
Please Jen. I don’t want to. Stop this.
I want some dick. I need it. It’s been a long time. Just lay back and let me do what you know I’m going to.
He did. I took his cock and it slipped into my wet cunt like it was made for it. God knows I really missed getting fucked. I hadn’t been laid sense Cunt Buster fucked me up. I really want to know if everything still worked the way it was supposed to. And man did it ever. It was so go to be in control of Steve. He was the only man in the world I could say no to. He was the only one I never felt like he was in control of me. I was trying to regain control of anything at that point. And Steve was my escape. I rode him hard. I came over over his balls. I even made him eat his own load out of me when I was done with him. His face looked like a glazed donut when I left him in his bed.
Don’t worry. I’ll come in early tomorrow and wash you up before your mom sees you. You just sleep with my pussy juice on your face for the night and remember. You deserve this.
I slept like a baby on the couch. My cunt still twitching from the orgasms he so painful gave me. ( for those who haven’t read previous chapters Steve had his nuts hurt when he was younger and even time he had sex it was painful for him. But he did still have to empty his balls sometimes. And I enjoyed doing that for him. )
I woke up and took a warm pan of water into Steve’s room and gave him a bath. He smiled and I thought everything was back to normal. Until I got home from work that afternoon.
I walked in and a very large black guy named Jim met me at the front door.
Wow, who are you sexy?
I’m the one who is going to make sure you never hurt my friend Steve again.
Jim grab me by my hair as I was trying to run for the door. He picked me up and carried me into Steve’s room. I was thrown on the bed. And I think he was between my legs before I even landed there. His cock found my pussy and of course I was wet as fuck as always. He was trying his best to hurt me with that thick cock he had. But I was very used to dick by then. I wasn’t lubed up like I should have been for anal play though. And as soon as Jim found that out I was in a lot of pain. His cock split me open. I screamed into his chest. But he kept going. I saw Cunt Buster on top of me. I was crying and Panic over took me. Then I looked to my side and saw Steve sitting by the bed smiling at me. And everything was fine. The pain was there but I could take it. My cunt was wet again. My nipples got hard and I begged for more. Jim gave me more. He fucked me for a while going back and forth wearing out both of my holes. I came so much Steve’s bed was a wet mess before we got done. And he was happy with it. I watched as he slowly jacked off to Jim hurting me. I deserved it. I knew it. They knew it. Jim put on his pants and told Steve that he would be back tomorrow. That a whore like me needed a good fuck every day. I swear I had an Orgasm just hearing him, say it.
Thanks Jim.
Then Jim leaned over and kissed Steve on the mouth. A very passionate kiss. And I finally understood what was going on. Why Steve always acted like sex with me bothered him. It wasn’t that his nuts hurt that much. Although they did. He felt bad because he was cheating on Jim with me.
Jim left and I was still trying to stand up. My ass was about three inches off the bed when all the air Jim pumped in my ass came flying back out in a very loud wet cum fart. A small turd laid on the edge of Steve’s bed.
“ I’m sorry about that. I’m sorry about a lot of things Steve. “
I started crying and cleaning up and basically going nuts. Steve grabbed me and I just fell into his arms. I cried for a long time. I tried to explain why. The rapes in Germany. Mr. Ben, my time in Arizona Candy’s husband. I told him I never felt like I was in control of anything. How I couldn’t tell any man no. How I wanted to die with a dick shooting off in my ass. I told I knew how crazy it sounded. He listened to me for hours. I told him I was still going crazy wanting more pills even though I had been Sober for more than half a year at that point. Sometime in the night I was in Steve’s arms laying next to him. He was slowly stroking my cunt. Telling me how beautiful I was. I fell asleep with him petting me. And in the morning he was gone. Back to work. And soon I was too.
We had an arrangement. I got to fuck Jim three times a week. And I stayed out of Steve’s room unless I was asked in.
It should have been enough. I should have learned. But I hadn’t really learned anything. Two weeks later I was back at BBs. Well behind BBs getting fucked by some redneck. He didn’t have pills. But he did have some cocaine. And man I had a new best friend. There was nothing better than snorting a few lines and driving a big as bus around in the woods picking up kids. Or so I thought. Because you know what would be even better than cocaine and driving a bus? Well having one of those teenagers fuck me of course. And that’s what I did. I found out this tall skinny kid liked looking at me. And I changed my route so he was the first and last person off. Then I made my move.
Hey there. Looks like I started half an hour early today. We have time to just sit here for a bit before we head out to get everybody. So what’s your name?
Robbie.
Well Robbie, I bet you would love to have some fun with an older woman wouldn’t you?
“ what are you talking about “
“ just you and me. Haven’t you ever been with a woman. Don’t you want to?”
What? What are you asking me?
Robbie. Do you want me to teach you how to fuck a girl. Do you want to have sex with me?”
Well finally, after hearing the word sex he caught on. He just nodded his head and I took him to the back of the bus. I sat him down and took his pants down. He didn’t have a huge dick. But it would do. As soon as I closed my mouth around it he shot off like a rocket. I swallowed three times before he finished.
Well, I guess we’ll have to try again this afternoon. Robbie just sat there with a dreamy look on his face smiling at me.
I laughed and told him to pull up his pants. It took a few lessons but within the week Robbie was throwing me over the back sit and pounding my cunt like his life depended on it. God I loved having his cum slowly leak out of me as I smiled at on the kids I picked up. Every afternoon Robbie would fuck my butt and warm me up for Jim when I got back to Steve’s. Things were going well. I was high and getting dick again. Doing dangerous things but not too dangerous. So I thought. It went on about three months before one afternoon Robbie had a friend with him one afternoon.
I told John you would let him have some pussy too Jen
“ what are you talking about Robbie. I’m not having sex with you young man. Sit down until I get you home. What in the world has come over you.
I wasn’t about to have Robbie tell everybody in school I had sex with him. I thought he would take the hint. But teenagers don’t catch on quickly.
If you don’t have sex with us I’m telling my parents.
These boys weren’t going to take no for an answer.
So I found a dirt road and pulled off. It might have been the same one Mr Ben used to rape me so many years ago.
Well boys, here it is. One wet hairy pussy just for you two to have fun with. Come on. Get those dicks hard for me.
They did. It took quite a while for them to cum. They kept on switching places. I was getting sore from all the pounding on my cunt. Finally I had enough.
Okay. No more switching off. Robbie come sit down here. John you get behind us.
I took Robbie in my sore pussy while John got his first pice of ass for his bus driver. Man those two kids wore me out. And they knew it to. Feeling their cocks sliding in and out. Teenage cum everywhere. I was losing my mind. After I dropped them off with a promise to keep this quiet. I went back to BBs. Had sex with my dealer. And got high as a kite to have sex with Jim.
I better stop here before I tell you how it all went wrong.
I had fun. I had what I thought I wanted and needed. But my world was about to fall apart again. It shouldn’t be to long before chapter ten I hope.

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