Why I am the way I am. 7

This starts with me leaving the army, and my visit with Steve back in Kentucky. You may want to read earlier chapters to know what is happening.

Sorry I left my last chapter with a lot of unanswered questions. I’ll try to fill in the details with this one. Because everyone likes the dirty details.

“Well, Jen it’s great to see you again. It’s been so long.”
“ it has been a while. I’m sorry I didn’t keep in touch. Is Steve OK? Has he missed me?”
“ oh yeah, he’s fine. He’s still a little depressed about being stuck in a wheelchair. I don’t mind telling you, dear, but you’re the only woman that’s ever stopped by to see him. I’m glad you still want to see my son. I wish others were as kind as you. “
After the usual greetings Steve’s mother finally let me go back to his room to visit. She told me that she was stepping out. She gave me a wink and waved goodbye. I smiled and went to see my first lover Steve. ( he raped my and took my virginity. I had him beat up and put into a wheelchair, the rest of his life. That story is in chapter 2 I believe. )
“Hello Steve”
“ holy shit. What are you doing back here. “
“ nice to see you too Asshole. Don’t worry I’m not going to have you clean my dirty cunt like you did last time. I just stop by to see how your life was going “
“ I’m doing great “
“ you talk your mom into giving you a hand job every now and then?”
“ no, I do that myself when I have to. I can’t believe you still want to come by to laugh at me. Haven’t you seen enough. I’m going to be crippled my whole life. It’s not like they can put my legs back on. “
“ Yeah, I know. I feel bad about that. I didn’t know they were going to take it that far. You did write me though . So you sort of deserved it. “
“ Nobody deserves what they did to me.”
“ Well, if it helps, a lot of people have done it to me too. I spent the last four years in Germany getting raped . Most of the time I just got fucked . It was kind of a blur. Some guys write me some guys wanted to pay to fuck me. I took a lot of dick. But you know what they say you never forget your first.”
“ so you came back here just to have sex with me? Don’t bother. I can do it myself thanks.”
“ Steve, when I was leaving the Army I had my Asshole tighten back up. They fix some of the hemorrhoids. Life of a whore and a truck driver , I had to pay for my pussy lips myself. They started to hang a little bit. I was beginning to be a lose fuck by the end of 4 years. I made a lot of money as a Prostitute. But it takes a Told on your body. I haven’t had sex in 4 months. So almost a Virgin again. I figured I’d let you break me in again. If you want. “
“ why? I’m mean really why are you doing this?”
“ I feel bad about having you beaten and raped. Can’t a person feel guilty about something. “
“ a person could. But not you. You’re just here to make me remember how it was. Then you well be gone again for years. Then when I’m good with being alone you will be back. I’m done with you. I’d rather be alone than just be fucking used while you go off and enjoy your life. “
“ well, it’s not like you got any stronger sense I left. If I have to rape you I can. But really, I’d rather you just roll over to the bed and get undressed yourself. I can make you. But this will go easier if you just play along with me.”
Steve knew I would just take him over to his bed and rape him. He couldn’t stop me. He put his head down and rolled over to his bed. Sad and defeated. He hadn’t been with anyone since I left him 4 years ago. But he didn’t care about that. I was just a reminder to what he used to have. I thought I was doing him a favor. But maybe he was right. Maybe I just liked fucking with him. Maybe I enjoyed the power I had over him.
He was undressed and waiting for me.
“ you want to look at my new ass hole? It’s nice. Tight as a drum. I lubed up before coming over. But I’m not sure if I will let you fuck me there. My pussy needs a good fuck. 4 months is a long time. The doctor has been telling me to do Keagle‘s i’ve been a good girl doing my exercises every day should be just like when you raped me. Tight and wet. You remember that night right? How I begged you not to. Now I have to beg you to fuck me. “
“ just come on and get it over with. You know my nuts still hurt when I cum. Just please be quick.”
“ poor baby, I can’t believe your nuts still ache every time you bust a nut. That must really suck “
I crawled up on top of Steve and started giving him a blow job. His cock was nice. A nice average cock. Just a hair short of 7 inches it sure felt big when he shoved it in my that first time. But now after a few hundred dicks had plowed my ass it didn’t seem that impressive. I looked up in his eyes. What a sad face he had. I thought he was hard enough so I crawled up his body and lowered my new Cunt onto his dick. I rode him to a really good orgasm. He kept on wincing in pain. Every time his balls would tighten up ready to shoot his load. He would feel them aching and almost lose his erection entirely. It was great for me though. His hard dick just stayed hard. And I enjoyed him for a long time. Finally he couldn’t stop himself and his aching balls emptied into me. He shot a lot up in me. Like a Garden hose had shut off. I was impressed.
Good god Steve. How long have you been holding that?
“ two or three weeks. I don’t enjoy cumming. I mean I do but it hurts. I’m glad you enjoyed it.”
“ I did. Thanks. I do feel bad about it you know. If you want I can just hang out with you. “
“ sure, no one else is stopping by here.”
“ yeah your mom told me. Your guy friends don’t stop by for a beer?”
“ no, no one stops by. It’s just me and mom.”
“ damn, I think I would have to ask my dad to at least eat me out every once in awhile. “
“ she’s my mom. She wouldn’t do it anyway. It’s not like she’s a porn star. “
“ sorry. I’ll order us a pizza. Got any good movies “
I stayed the whole night with Steve. I gave him a blow job in the morning. And told him I would stop by when I could. Part of me felt so sorry for him. And that other part of me felt so happy he was still hurting like I was. He hurt in his balls. I hurt in my heart. We were two messed up people that was for sure.
I didn’t want to start over in Kentucky. So I bought me a nice little sports car and headed out to Nebraska to catch up with my friend Candy.
“ all my god it’s been so long. “
Yeah, I thought I’d never see you again. Man you haven’t changed a bit.
Candy if you only knew. I may look the same but I feel like I aged 20 years over in Germany.
“ I know how you feel. I met mark and my whole life changed. I’m married and working on having a baby. Mark is a great guy. I can’t wait for you to meet him. “
I didn’t want my friend to know I spent my whole four years being a prostitute. Even though we had been gang raped together. It was something we just didn’t bring up. It still upset Candy and it made me wet every time I thought about those 50 something men using me all night. We were so different. But we were close to. When you go through something like that together. It just makes a bond that you have for a lifetime.
“ so mark doesn’t know about Fort Jackson?”
“ he knows I went to truck driving school there. He doesn’t know 50 guys fuck me. And I would rather he didn’t know.”
“ sure, I won’t say anything.”
“ how was your tour over there? Why didn’t you come see me?”
“ I was… I was going to say busy. But truthfully I was just being a whore. Really. I probably slept with 1000 men over there . Wore out my pussy so bad I had to get surgery on it”
“ Jesus Christ, what the fuck Jen”
“ it just worked out that way. I liked sex. Meet a guy who liked money and we just worked out together. Then he started feeling like he loved me or something. After that I just became the biggest whore you ever saw. I even fucked my first Sergeant twice a week for 200 bucks. Your best friend is a whore Candy. “
“ sleep with whoever you want. I don’t care. Just don’t fuck my Mark okay?”
“ sure, I’m sure I can Control myself.
We had a great time visiting. That evening I met Mark and he was a great husband. Candy fell into the role of a wife easily like I knew she would They had a big farm in Nebraska. I stuck around and put in some applications. I got a job driving a truck full of corn to the next town over. Everything was going well again. I should’ve known to keep my guard up.
I had stopped by to see Candy on a Sunday. She was still at church. Mark was fixing a tractor and had to still home. I was just being friendly talking about the weather. When he put his hand on my ass.
Mark, what are you doing?”
“What, like you don’t want to do anything? I see the way you look at me. I know you want to. “
“ you’re a nice looking man Mark. But you’re married to my best friend. So no I don’t want to fuck you”
He was strong and I wasn’t going to try to fight him and ruin my relationship with Candy. I was just a warm wet whole for mark to try out. So I just let him bend me over a set of tires in his barn and have his way with me. Fuck he had a great cock. I wanted to hate it. But the man knew how to throw some dick. I came like a little bitch for him. I begged him to fuck me by the time he was done.
When it was over I pulled up my pants and shook my head now believing that it had happened. When Candy pulled up 10 minutes later I told her I got a job offer in Arizona. I hadn’t. But I couldn’t stay there. I knew it would just fuck up everything. So I gave her a big hug as her husband’s cum filled up my underwear. I waved goodbye that very night.
My life in Arizona should have its own chapter.
I hope you all enjoyed this little chapter and I will try my best to get another done this week.
Thanks for all the comments and support.
Yours truly
Jen, bluebird 517