I forced mom

I was 17 I had a thing for my mom. It started when I was 12 or 13 and became a obsession that I controlled and kept secret. I had just gotten up before school half awake walking down hallway to bathroom and mom was in her bedroom getting dressed I just looked in door that was open when I walked by and my entire world and thoughts of her changed. She had just slipped her nite shirt over her head I saw her panties and tits which were perfect she didn’t see me half turned from doorway but I saw her and turned around and walked by door again so I could see and she was bent over getting her jeans . I walked by a third time saw her button her jeans and she saw me her tits still exposed. All she said was hurry up in bathroom your sister will be getting up soon.
Never covered herself but I was like 12 or 13 so she didn’t think nothing of it is all I could figure.
Over the next few years I became obsessed. We had tickling matches and wrestling when I was that age still and I would get hard after seeing her that day and would do everything I could to catch glimpses of her. I was 17 now and still obsessed dad was truck driver and gone all week. I would go outside and watch through window at her changing I would fix her curtains so I could see through a gap.
Well one day she was in there about 9 at night and I went around house and she pulled her pants to her knees and lay on bed and masturbated.
I came in my pants watching her.
She didn’t waist much time maybe 5 minutes and she pulled them back up, but was enough to make me more obsessed.
Mom was 5’ tall 120 lbs she wore 34c cup I would go through laundry basket. Size 5 panties.
I was159 lbs now and was lifting for wrest in school so I was stronger than mom now.
I had planes it in my mind I needed to have her. I was beyond obsessed at his point. So one evening shortly after that mom had just gotten out of shower in evening and sat down to watch tv. She alway wore this loose pjs shirt and shorts and I would peek as well as I could sometimes catching glimpse of her panties. She had lost some weight recently and the pjs fit loser and she would constantly pull them up when she would stand or walk.
I started tickling her . I was just in my boxers and t shirt having planed this my boxers I had on the opening in from unbuttoned so my dick would at stick out when I got hard. I was already hard thinking about what I wanted to do.
So when I started ticket her she was laughing and twisting on couch and i pushed her up knowing her pjs would slip off her butt. It was all thought out to make it look more like a accident and I got carried away.
Still ticking her she pulls her legs up to pushed me off like she has down in past I keep her giggling and when her knees come up I get between them pinning her legs at her sides her panties like I was hoping slipped off her little ass and she was exposed my cock hit home on first shot. Knowing what I know now. At time I was a virgin I was so lucky it slipped non like it did hitting her perfectly. Mom stiffened up and from what I remember said ohhh Dave stop. I felt warm wet gripping my cock and I pushed deep and pumped rapidly I rent moaning out oh mom as I held her legs and pumped and she frantically trying to push me off I started saying I was sorry as I fucked her . Mom I’m sorry I’m sorry I can’t stop and I came hard.
I mean it felt like I blew the head of my cock off I grunted so loud luckily my sister was in her room with music playing.
I almost passed out it felt so amazing and lay on her panting my cock still throbbing inside her and it was over she was not crying but clearly upset and while I was still laying on her was sky me why I did it. I catch my breath realizing what I had done and pulled out whisked me Kirk involuntarily I caught a glimpse of my cone leaking out of her I came a lot before she covered herself and pulled her legs together.
All I could say is I was sorry . I didn’t mean too. ( of course I meant too but I played like it was a accident)
Mom got up and went to bathroom and was in there awhile and I went to my room. I heard her come out of bathroom to her room then came to mine and said that what I did was wrong. And real bad . I asked if she was going to tell dad.
She said we can talk tomorrow.
She never talked about it the next day and never told dad.
About a week or so later she asked me why I did it . I told her I just got over excited and when I felt it against her I lost control. She bought it and wouldn’t wrestle me after that day.