Lost my virginity to my cousins friend

It was not what I was expecting it to be like the first time I did it.. But unfortunately it was

OK I'm 21 and I was still a virgin and female
I wasn't very nice looking if being honest cause of all the acne around my mouth and over my nose.. If I'm being honest it was horrible
Anyway apart from that I have ginger hair also which was really bright ginger I used to have to listen to all the jokes about having ginger hair and still do from time to time.
If I'm brutally honest I wasn't the prettiest girl
Anyway I was at this party it was one of my cousins birthday party I was sitting there having a drink looking around the hall at everyone having fun
I was just sitting there drinking I was drunk if I was being honest I was going to the toilet as I wasn't feeling too good probably because of the amount of alcohol I had drank
I threw up in the toilet cleaned myself up done the toilet and went back to the table sitting there having a drink of water now but still feeling rather drunk
I ended up going outside sitting around the corner of the main entrance to the hotel on this bench it was out of the way with bushes around it
I was just sitting there minding my own business feeling rather drunk
When I heard is it OK if I sit down next to you it was this guy
He's one of my cousins friends he's about 17 he looked young but he was 17 as I later found out
Anyway he's talking to me asking me about this and that I'm sitting there slurring my words as I was rather drunk
Talking to him
It was a while later I'm not really sure but it felt like ages that he was talking to me
When all off a sudden he's kissing me I didn't stop him I actually was kissing him back
He's got his hands going all over my body on my boob's as he's pressing them against me as he's touching my nipples through my bra under my dress
I'm just sitting there kissing him as he's feeling me up on my boob's that's when I felt my panties gently getting pulled away from me down between my legs as he's fingering me I'm just sitting there holding him as he's fingering me rather fast and hard
I was starting to feel this tingling sensation it was getting more and more intense the more he was fingering me it was overwhelming taking over my whole body I actually had a orgasm as he was fingering me I actually pulled his hand away as I was soaking wet between my legs and I didn't like the squelching noise that my fanny was making as he was fingering me it was embarrassing.
I'm sitting there holding him with my arms around on his back and chest that's when he was putting my hand down between his legs he's actually got his cock out and I'm sitting there with my hand around on it feeling it pulsating in my hand as I was holding it I'm jerking him off sitting there looking down at my hand on his cock as I'm jerking him off I was just sitting there looking at it when this stuff was shooting out of it it was going all over my dress over my lap I'm just jerking him off until it had stopped cumin out of his cock it felt warm as it was running down between my fingers and hand
He's looking at me saying that it felt good thanks
He's gone hard again as I was still holding him in my hand
He's pushing me back on the bench and he's got himself on top of me pulling my panties down as he's pushing himself up inside me it felt sore as he was moving himself up deeper inside me then he stopped he's just holding me as I was looking at him expecting him to start humping me but he was pulling it out of me and he's standing up putting his cock back into his trousers and helping me up I'm fixing my panties sitting there as he was sitting there saying that was incredible
I'm just sitting there looking at him saying OK
It didn't even last a minute if I was being brutally honest it was actually over before it started he was asking me if we could do it again I was just saying that I was needing to go home making my excuses to leave I left him sitting there going back into the toilet washing myself down between my legs and trying to clean my dress which I managed to do eventually it was a time that I would rather forget about