The story of how I became a fag

I AM A FAGGOT? ...a closet faggot, but a to-the-bone wannabe cock lover can't get it out of my mind. Above all I have been in my life thus far, this has been the constant. Started with strong puberty desires for cock and one real incident but the want and need has never left me and now, because someone online on has pulled it out of me, I am admitting it.. I AM A FAGGOT>,

Ok, I will first tell this story of my first cock encounter...

I was probably 13 when I rode my bike to the mall I knew well. I went for some reason that I don't recall and is insignificant to the story. I went in the bathroom through the double grey doors down the long hallway past the security and janitor offices. It was a remote bathroom few knew about but avoided the usual crowd at the food court bathroom. I went in the middle stall of three and did my business and while getting some toilet paper, I noticed a hole in the wall. After wiping, I peeked through and was shocked by what I saw... a man jerking off.

OMG!!!, I had never seen that. At the time, I was stealing my mother's romance novels to read the sex parts and jerking off my little cock. I once stole a playboy from the pharmacy and jerked off endlessly to this beautiful girls but I never saw anything in person to that point in my life.

I remember being in awe of how big his cock was and thinking that I would have such a member when I grew up. (I think it’s pretty big you can be the judge of that [email protected], Lsteward#wicker). I was also thinking he must not know that there was a hole in the wall and that someone could see him (so naive). I moved my angle of view to see his face and he was looking right at me. Another OMG moment! I shot back and sat back feeling like I had just been caught stealing. I wanted to get out of there. I looked at the hole and his eyeball was there and he was looking at me. I leaned back far so he couldn't see my face but there was no hiding my rather hard little dick. Like any 13 year old, I got aroused at about anything, but this time, I was obviously aroused by the sight of him stroking his man cock and he now knew it. He was talking to me and telling me to "jerk it". I was so very nervous but the thought of it was exciting. Still leaning back, I slowly reached down and started stroking. He kept commenting and as my confidence grew it was amazing... amazing that someone was so excited to see me do that.

I would have been satisfied jerking off and leaving and fully intended to do just that but I was startled to feel his hand touch my leg under the stall. It was entering a whole new level. He rubbed my leg and was obviously trying to reach my cock but couldn't quite get there. He was pulling my leg and I finally scooted toward his hand to allow him to fondle me. I remember my legs shaking but it felt so good for another human hand to be massaging my balls and stroking me. He kept pulling me down and finally I got on my knees and he was quick to pull me to the edge with my cock under the stall and started blowing me. SOOOO wonderful and I would have came quick but someone came in and he tapped me on the leg and sat back, I did too.

I think I liked everything about what was happening but it was about to go to a whole nother level. After the guy that came in left, I thought we would continue but I was wrong. He immediately got on HIS knees and stuck his cock under. Yes, another OMG moment. There was this huge man cock being offered to me. After sitting for a moment, I nervously but wantingly reached down and wrapped my hand around his cock. I liked it. I jerked him and felt his big balls. It was all amazing to me. His mouth was about at the hole level as he knelt there and he was telling me to suck it. "Suck It!" Suck It!" The point of no return... I got on my knees and it was like slow motion.. I held that cock in my hand and moved my mouth on it. When that big head started sliding through my lips it made me close my eyes. People say, do you know the moment that you knew you were a faggot? I think that was it. I loved it. The big head spread my lips wide and his cock filled my mouth. I sucked him slowly at first and I think after a minute I forgot about anything else. I was giving a blowjob and I loved it. I was surprised by him cumming and had no idea about the volume of cum of a man. I found out quickly. It filled my mouth a few times over and I was swallowing to keep up. I felt like it was what you were supposed to do when you did that to someone. I really didn't even know to stop. I kept blowing him even after I swallowed everything until he pulled back. I remember HIS legs shaking as he pulled back and stood up.

I sat back on the toilet a little out of breath, tasting cum for the first time, and feeling amazed that I just blew someone and felt like I did a good job. I felt proud actually. That guy left and I jerked off thinking about what I had just done. I rode my bike home tasting cum the whole way and jerked off again when I was at home. I think I liked it.